Left my wallet in El Segundo

please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please.

in other news, some random person from my high school friended me on the facebook to-day. i don't remember her at all but i wish i did because her profile leads me to believe she is massively cool.

Things I like the taste of.

1. Steak. An oldie but a goodie. And who knew I (read: Kaitlin) was able to make a steak soooo delicious?

2. Fudge. Even if there's lots of sugar, fudge may be the sweetest of all desert treats. And so easy to make, especially when using the recipe that sounds like a questionable-content-website.

3. My own medicine. Ok, maybe I don't like this at all. But I taste it and I probably deserve it.

4. Bacon + Syrup + Turkey. Or at least I assume I would.

5. Sweet Bread and Butter Pickles. Even Giant Eagle brand mo-facka.

6. Hoegaarden. Slice of lemon and a slice of heaven.

7. Frozen Margaritas. So what if one was bad. I hate you all. I still like them. Mmmm...salty.

8. Did I mention the turkey? Ok, I dont hate you anymore.

9. Success! Oh, wait that's a smell. Well, the two are closely related on some sort of chemical level. Well, yeah, my job's tend to be kicking ass right now. I thought loneliness would surely arise. But, no, it doesn't. At all. I just get to work all day in my pajamas, occasionally bike to campus for a meeting, visit Kaitlin (until next Tuesday :( ... but really :), take some ddr breaks, or lunch breaks for a sandwhich with salami, provolone, ballpark mustard, some honey, and the aforementioned bread and butter pickles, maybe some nachos or funyuns, apples and caramel dip, maybe some fudge or ice cream. Well, you get the idea. Ooh, and I get paid a lot!

10. I wrote this last one and then decided it was creepy and changed it. So let's go with Pamelas because that shit's delicious.

This survey thing.

So it was this or not another teen ass-vie.

LAYER ONE:

full name: [edit]
birth date: [edit]
birthplace: Cleveland, OH
current location: Pittsburgh
eye color: brown
hair color: brown, will be different in a month or so!
height: 5'11"
Righty or lefty: Righty

LAYER TWO:

your heritage: there's some polish, jewish, i don't know. lots of eastern european but it was so long ago...
the shoes you wore today: my tennis shoes. i used to wear all kinds of interesting shoes. umm, now i dont.
your weaknesses: an inability to make decisions
your perfect pizza: pineapple and bacon
goal you'd like to achieve: love

LAYER THREE:

your most overused phrase on AIM: i don't really use aim. currently my most overused phrase is a tie between "lord knows i have" or some variation and "i've seen er"
your thoughts first waking up: boo!
your bedtime: depends how long i'm on the phone.
your most missed memory: ok, so if i remember it, how is it missed? i assume then this means most missed event/time that happened. in which case my answer is my dad.

LAYER FOUR:

pepsi or coke: pepsi. but i would take tropicana orangeade only either.
mcdonald's or burger king: bk all the way.
single or group dates: both?
adidas or nike:
iced tea or nestea: homemade by my mommy!
chocolate or vanilla: chocolate.
cappuccino or coffee: cappuccino cause it's fancy.

LAYER FIVE:

smoke: not presently.
curse: yeah, i do this sometimes. man this survey sucks.
sing: mostly to people's voicemails. and then a lot.
have a crush: always true.
do you think you've been in love: at least twice.
do you want to go to college?: not really. i want to go to cullinary school!
like(d) high school: high school itself i didnt like. my friends were jerks and mean and the education was arguable at best. but the time period (particularly the last year), was pretty kick-ass taking theatre and my kick-ass friends outside of high school into account.
want to get married: if i find the girl.
believe in yourself: generally.
think you're attractive: depends on the day. today, no.
think you're a health freak: yeah most certainly not. unless bacon is really healthy.
get along with your parent(s): i do. not as much as i should.
like thunderstorms: no.
play an instrument: i used to play the trombone. now i play the drums. though not as much as i would like to. but spring 2k6, will the world be prepared for referential integrity?

LAYER SIX:

In the past month...

drank alcohol: a number of times.
smoked: nope.
done a drug: nope.
made out: surprisingly yes.
gone on a date: sadly no, esp because it's about my favorite thing.
gone to the mall?: no.
eaten an entire box of oreos: i dont really like oreos all that much.
eaten sushi: yes, briefly.
been dumped: no, sir.
gone skating: no.
made homemade cookies: damn it, we almost did tonight.
gone skinny dipping: nevah.
dyed your hair: damn it, i almost will in a bit.
stolen anything: also nevah.

LAYER SEVEN:

Ever...

played a game that required removal of clothing: no, but i would :)
if so, was it mixed company: not applicable!
been trashed or extremely intoxicated: definately for pre-teens, this test.
been caught "doing something": well once, mike yin said "what are you doing?" and i said "i wanted to check my bloglines." so i guess he caught me "doing something," something of course being checking my bloglines.
been called a tease: are you kidding? i can't tease.
gotten beaten up: i wish.
shoplifted: nope.
changed who you were to fit in: very often. sadly.

LAYER EIGHT:

age you hope to be married: whenever. but...well, it's not worth getting into.
numbers and names of children: who knows? but if i have a girl, i really hope her name is hermione.
describe your dream wedding: leisure suits everywhere.
how do you want to die: old.
where you want to go to college: i think we've been over this.
what do you want to be when you grow up: fun.
what country would you most like to visit: switzerfreakingland.

More quizzes

I took this "What do you really think of your friends" quiz. It was accurate in parts, and way off in others, so overall I think it sucked. However, it did have this highlight:

You secretly think that Mike Yin is loyal and trustworthy to you. And that Mike Yin changes lovers faster than underwear.

Onwards and Upwards

So as many people reflect, I decided to look forward. These are things I look forward to in the year to come, in no particular order:

1. Singapore
2. Coming back from Singapore
3. The Wedding (assuming I'm invited, ok well even if I'm not)
4. Building a website / mostly kick-ass job
5. Getting my server to, you know, serve
6. Poker. Lots of poker.
7. Champagne (3 bottles need to be drunk)
8. Bars + Atom + Sarah Smith
9. Board games all the time
10. The train sound my phone makes when someone calls
11. That time I finally get to talk to Hannah
12. Transcendental Meditation
13. Myst III (no lip, dai)
14. Cookie Ice Cream Sandwiches (did I spell it right, Tasse?)
15. Pulling an Atom Atkinson, and literally being drunk for an entire week
16. Starting a life

call me zach harris

this is amazing

Your Birthdate: March 29

Your birthday on the 29th adds a tone of idealism to your nature. You are imaginative and creative, but rather uncomfortable in the business world. You are very aware and sensitive, with outstanding intuitive skills and analytical abilities. The 29 reduces to 11, one of the master numbers which often produces much nervous tension. This is the birthday of the dreamer rather than the doer. You do, however, work very well with people.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Check please!

such an indescribable week i have had. my sister graduated. well, she walked. the guy who gave her speech was ron carter, who is apparently a big jazz bass player. i've never been to a college graduation before. i enjoyed it. he made me want to have spent four years dedicating my life to some kind of art. eh.

a weekend in boston (and $180 at h&m) later, i was home. it was, as it always is, emotional. i spent the week helping my mom clean up the basement (the last task that needs to be done before our house is on the market). it will be better for her, the new place, but i will be nothing but sad to have this house out of my life. we have been the only family to live in it, and have been here for 19 years.

i also watched some crappy crappy television as my mom only gets 20 channels. but i read a lot (both on the plane and home), finished metamorphosis (and the accompanying 10000000 pages of notes on the text) which kicked maximum ass. i am nearly finished with the burton biography and watched what the author called tim burton's greatest film to date and also one that few people have ever heard of or associate with burton. (sidebar: i discovered by a fluke of nature we all call hinkelman that the entire semester i have had both "vincent" and "frankenweenie" on a dvd in my apartment and didn't watch them). i read the first half of my transcendental meditation book. maybe nina's right and none of it's real. i may never "see far down the corridors of time into [my] past and future" but it does relax me. and i still have the "bagavad gita" waiting for which i am most eager.

what else? well i had coffee with my ex-girlfriend who i haven't seen in at least 2 years. that was interesting, to say the least. she's doing well. i had (more) coffee with 2 crazy ladies from my high school i see on occasion, lunch with a friend of mine who thinks i am insane now (though it is always nice to see her), and i bowled 3 games with non other than daniel j. tasse. i also saw sin city at long last and don't find it nearly as gory as people led me to believe it would be, though it was rife with castration.

at the end of the day, i feel so much love. it gets me nowhere but it exists. and love solves everything.

That quiz-thing

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to good manners and elegance.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage pessimistically. You don't think happy marriages exist anymore.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

This is remarkably accurate. One is entirely untrue (marriage) and one is arguable. Other than that, all true! Apparently, my assessment of weird animal situations is correct.

Don't get poop in your pants.

And the countdown begins to the rest of my life.

I feel like a lot of people are feeling this way. But despite some momentary glipses into the past I am overjoyed to leave behind, I feel like the past semester (and past few weeks especially) have really been the beginning to the way it's going to be. Or at least the way it's going to be for a while.

I would like to thank all of the wonderful people in the world. I don't spend all of my days happy, because that's not something a person can expect from life. But even the bad moments are filled with people being amazing to me. So as I sit in this Saturn dealership, unable to leave, I am reading blogs and reflecting.

I don't want to attempt to shout out all I love, but here's a few things that need to be said.

1) Scott and Katie, Katie and Scott, Skacotiotet. I am glad I don't have to be really pissed at Scott forever, for in the first week or two of Fall semester, I swore to do so if you ever fucked this up. You have in fact done quite the opposite. I love you both and have rarely been so happy about something that the thought of it still makes me spontaneously cry happy tears sometimes. But don't make fun of me, because I will punch you in the stomach.

2) Atom, Sarah Smith, and the beautiful zph. Creative writers are so sexy. You are all so talented it humbles me and I wish I could hang out with you thousands of more times for the rest of my life. With the exception of Ms. Smith, I am quite proud of the amount I managed to see you before the year came to a close, but I promise you I will hang out with all of you even more this summer.

3) Julie Brown. You are a god among men (and women). Keep your chin up and look forward to the greatness the next few months will bring you.

4) Ram S. Subramanian. I would have been jealous last night if I didn't know I would make the same choice. The more I hang out with you, the more I realize that all women are making a mistake (except for katie). You are loud, but it's part of your charm. I wish I had time to make what you don't call a Sarong today.

5) Kaitlin. Congratulations. I am really so very happy that you are happy. I miss you and blame only myself.

6) Tyson. I feel so so many things. I thank you for this lunch. Without it, I would be lost in a sea of assumptions.

Ok, I need to release use of this computer to other patient Saturn customers. If you weren't named, it means nothing. Those I just wanted to say, because they have been an integral part of my last 12 (or so) hours.

Oh, and I am going to Singapore. It took me a long time to decide, but I have not been this overwhelmingly happy about a choice I (not Scott) made in years.

Love,
beej